Depression and anxiety, and the pathway through

green grass field near mountain under white clouds during daytime

Depression and anxiety have been a part of my life for a long time. I think some of it is genetics and some of it is because I am a people pleaser. I have had bouts of both throughout my life. When I was diagnosed with ALS, it triggered more issues. I have had a few breakdowns along the way. My anxiety about my health affected my health so much that I now take medication to manage it.

In Psalm 77, the writer, Asaph, takes us on this journey. Before we dig in, I know depression and anxiety are a struggle for many and we all have different experiences and needs. I am no expert on the subject, but I will share my journey through the words of the psalmist. I hope it will be helpful. Now, back to Psalm 77.

The condition

The first nine verses drip with despair. “I cry out to God; yes, I shout. Oh, that God would listen to me!” “I think of the good old days, long since ended.” “Has God forgotten to be gracious? Has he slammed the door on his compassion?” These are just some of the statements Asaph makes. I have said many of these things myself. The thought of the good old days is particularly poignant with this disease. I used to be able to walk and talk. I have wondered where God is. These are the desperate searches for meaning and understanding that rise out of our anxiety and depression.

The change

The next three verses take us through the mindset change.

And I said, “This is my fate; the Most High has turned his hand against me.” But then I recall all you have done, O Lord; I remember your wonderful deeds of long ago. They are constantly in my thoughts. I cannot stop thinking about your mighty works.

“This is my fate.” How many times do we think this? How many times do we stop here? Are you there now? When I get to this point, I cry. A lot. It is not a problem to be in this spot. It is a problem to stay here. We need to “recall” and “remember” what God has done! For me, this is looking back and focusing on the blessings of my life. My salvation, my family, my friends, our house, my parents, and so much more. Seeing what God has done and believing in what he will do turns my fate into God’s plan.

The contemplation

The rest of the Psalm focuses on what God has done. This is one of my favorite verses from this part of the Psalm.

Your road led through the sea, your pathway through the mighty waters—a pathway no one knew was there!

I look back at the time my dad told me to leave college. He led me down a pathway no one knew was there, especially me. I don’t know where my current pathway leads, but God’s track record is perfect. This gives me hope and comfort. We need to remember what God has done and trust Him for what He will do.

Let me know your thoughts on this. Leave a comment or send me a message directly with the contact form.

Psalm 77 is quoted from the NLT. You can read the full Psalm here.

3 responses to “Depression and anxiety, and the pathway through”

  1. Brian Dahl Avatar
    Brian Dahl

    This is a beautiful reflection, Steve. Your open, honest and true walk with Jesus is an inspiration.

    I have spent 20+ years reading and praying through the Psalms because I’m so encouraged and inspired by David, Asaph and other writer’s open, honest and true encounters with our Savior. Psalm 77 is a great example!

    I love your description of the “mindset change” from despair to remembering. You model the fellowship with Jesus we can experience in the midst of suffering. We suffer with Christ, as he suffered for us. No matter our circumstances – past, present, future – he is with us. And one day we will be free and whole in His presence!

    I love you, brother. May your joy be complete in His presence today.

  2. Tricia Avatar
    Tricia

    God’s track record IS perfect! Love this blog post, thank you for sharing.

  3. Lori S Avatar
    Lori S

    Thank you for your open and honest discussion here! I’ve always found comfort in Psalm 13 in times of anxiety or depression. It’s more condensed than 77, but the lessons are the same. The Psalmists are REAL people who experienced REAL things. You, my friend, are an inspiration to all!!!!!